Wednesday, February 14, 2018

My recent submission to the Expert Panel on Religious Freedom C/O Department of the Prime Minister and Cabinet

ETA Monday, April 2: So I've come across two things that address the issue of Religious Liberty from some different sides, not necessarily straight up anti or pro, and I think they're definitely worth sharing.


I subscribe to Counter Arguments and I do encourage people to check it out. The arguments are clear and fairly comprehensive and provide great great ground for further discussions. In this video, he tackles the subject od religious freedom, specifically addressing the Kim Davis case and the arguments around civil disobedience. I think it does a great job of breaking the situation down, particularly helping to distinguish the roles of the different branches of US Government in legalising Gay Marriage and the implications for law enforcement.

An area of difficulty I found was in the idea that those advocating for religious liberty are in any way looking for a free for all pass on any behaviours claiming roots in religious belief and that is very well addressed in this article:


I think what this article does is outline the ability to have a balance that allows all cases and rights be properly examined and then dealt with accordingly which, as per my submission below, is something I strongly agree with.

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Further information regarding the current review is available here:
https://www.pmc.gov.au/domestic-policy/religious-freedom-review

The right to freedom of religion and belief is as fundamental as the right to dissent or criticise any form of belief. Both should be equally and adamantly protected. 

For the state to create an overriding general mandate on morality despite the complexity of core beliefs and the right to express those beliefs ultimately stifles the opportunity for genuine and open discussion which is essential to furthering human understanding in a pluralistic world. One doesn't wipe out discrimination by forcing people to act in genuine conflict with their conscience and the only real way you can distinguish between the two is through honest conversation which also must involve honest listening. 

If a case comes forward and is placed under scrutiny, then the merits of each side's arguments can actually be judged. Once the ability to even argue a side, whichever side it is, is taken away by being made contrary to law, the opportunity to judge actions based on genuine reason and merit disappears. In a democracy, such a thing would be unspeakably wrong. 

We must fight discrimination tooth and nail, but in trying to stamp out real discrimination, lumping those who intend to spread real hatred and unjustly discriminate with those who have genuine reason for their beliefs and whose beliefs have no root in hatred, does the population real injustice. In a democracy, we cannot abide by simply gagging a portion of the population. 

Our only chance is to protect the freedom of all sides to peacefully and respectfully live and express their beliefs and therefore allow genuine discussion and further encourage real understanding between all.

Sunday, January 21, 2018

No one's story deserves to be diminished, whoever they are, wherever they come from, whatever they've been through, however they look and whatever they believe.

Please.

Listen.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Revisiting: A Stroll through Washington DC

Korean War Veterans Memorial, Washington DC, taken October 2010

Those stony eyes just stare back at you, never flinching much like the rest of the soldier, hunching mid-trudge. The memorial does its job. It reminds you of things you’ve never seen. Of pain you’ll never experience. Those eyes made of stone simply a cold shell shaped by a sculptor’s hand that will somehow, with no words, no sound, destroy at least a little bit of that innocence which you have the privilege to own. 

Telepathy has been and always will be real. Via such memorials as these, men and women I’ve never met have spoken to me and told me countless stories about the world and about history. They have been able to do so despite barriers of time and place and with nothing more than strokes of pens and brushes, shaping of metal, and light captured by the mechanical eye of a camera. 

In this way, walking through DC and stumbling upon memorials I hadn’t realised were around the corner or at the end of the path, I was able to absorb pieces of history, just some of the pieces of the very story of humanity. I saw, if only for a few moments, the men in the jungles, among the trees, the fears in their eyes. I felt the rapid beats of their hearts and the tremors in their limbs as they continued their way towards an uncertain destiny. 

I then had the liberty of feeling that shot to the heart, that ache that is born when you realise just how many people have sacrificed and have been sacrificed for the very world in which I have the privilege to live; those who have literally lain down and become the pavestones of the paths and roads which brought us here. 

On their backs, exists my life, lest we forget. Lest we ever forget the debt we owe. Lest we ever forget the need to bring true legacy forward.  

This is the world. In one is all. 

I remember being struck by how little I had really pondered this particular war. Men died as they always do when mankind decides to decimate one another for whatever reasons, whatever gains. Yet historically tucked (conveniently or inconveniently) between WWII and the Vietnam War, a mind so happily untouched by such large scale conflict as mine was able to simply forget. As far as I know, I lost no one in this war. But many did and many will never forget. They have no luxury like mine. 

I have learned a great deal every time I’ve had the fortune and opportunity to travel. Largely, what I’ve learned is that my life is one of great comfort and privilege. 

And, on my life, I wonder if I will ever be able to truly conjure a means by which to express gratitude or appreciation. 

Saturday, March 25, 2017

The History of the World, Every Year


What an amazing video - I was pretty much glued to the screen for the entire 20 minutes. It will require a good few re-watches to get a hold of the things you miss while trying to keep up with everything that happens, y'know, in analysed recorded history, but they will be just as captivating, surely.

An incredible job by the people involved. Trying to picture the timeline and everything that eventually pulls together to create the tapestry that makes up a life, the history of a single human being, is a huge enough endeavour, let alone the movement of every single human through time.

Looking from the outside and then diving as far and as deeply in as possible only continues to emphasize the beautiful and insane complexity of the world. It would be amazing to be able to Dr Manhattan view it all, but hey, these kinds of videos are a pretty great glimpse.

Cheers, History.

Sunday, January 01, 2017

Another year late travel post - Pasko at Bagong Taon 2015-2016 sa Pilipinas!

Something I've written countless times on here is how overdue a post is and yep, I'm right there again... and I'm still a whole set of photos behind! Yeah, I know, that's about as first world as a problem can get, huh? Regardless, hopefully it's not too long before I get my US/Canada trip up on here.

Last Christmas, I was able to go home to the Philippines with my family for the first time since I was born, after a whopping 33 years. The rest of my family had been back numerous times but due to my health, travel back to the tropical climate had never been a viable option and admittedly, that was largely proven this time around. I was there a total of 11 days and my skin was wildly angry with me for most of it, which is a real shame because honestly, I fell right in love with the Phils from the second we landed in Manila.

Unfortunately, there is no viable representation for how insanely excited I was taking this first photo. 
Prior to my trip, I had been told for years just how wonderful it always was going back to the Phils - by family, by friends, by strangers who incidentally found out I was Pinoy and decided to share their experience - and these professions were often met with mixed emotions. My relationship with the notion of going back had always been complicated. My health, at least according to my parents, was a significant part of our choosing to live in Australia. It was understood that the weather back home wouldn't likely be merciful to my skin and it was because of this worry that whenever the family would go back to visit, I would never go with them.

Quite honestly, I really didn't mind although that in itself made me feel somewhat guilty about having no interest in going back especially considering that, to many others, that lack of interest was something of an insult. Furthermore, alongside the worry about how my health would cope, I'm pretty sure I also harboured an unacknowledged fear of flying, coupled with no real desire to actually travel anywhere overseas. Sure, I'd had past notions of wanting to see Disneyland as a kid and two movies with 'Sabrina' in the titled fairly tickled notions of getting to see Paris and Rome. Collectively, the rest of my family had lived in/been to the Phils, the US and further visited Europe on exchange or pilgrimage and I had vague notions of wanting to do the same, but hardly very strong ones.

Of course, this 'fear of flying' was eventually defeated after I decided to go for a nice long holiday to the US in 2010 upon realising that an overseas trip wouldn't actually completely bankrupt me (no, really, I had never considered it a possibility before then and then I looked up flights to New York thanks to the tales of my lovely workmate, Jenny, and immediately thought, whoa... I can potentially afford that!) so after carefully choosing a time of year I felt would be kindest to my health, off to the States I flew for an unforgettably awesome 5 weeks.

Wonderful and amazing though that trip was, I admittedly had it in my head that it was a once in a lifetime thing. Coming back to redundancy and an incapacity to work for a number of months due to health, the notion of employment, let alone steady enough employment to even think of saving money for another trip anywhere, was just not something I could imagine at the time.

Thankfully, I was able to ease back into the workplace again and by end of 2011, I was back in the game and after a few years of saving, I was finally able to tour Europe with some friends in 2014. In 2015, I had the even greater fortune of being invited to stay with some friends in Germany where they had moved temporarily for work.

Unwittingly long story short, by the time it was suggested that my parents wanted to have their 40th Wedding Anniversary in the Philippines with the rest of the family, I was automatically reluctant. Despite now having been a good few places, I had never yet tested myself in the climate I'd spent my life fearing. Saying that, I was definitely a lot more open to the idea now that I'd actually gone through the motions of travel and had more confidence in my ability to manage it, regardless of my health (not to mention my growing obsession with it, of course), so by the time we took off from Sydney, I was ready. Ready to finally see the country in which I was born, ready to finally meet the family I'd never met and ready to face fears I'd held for years.

And, skin be damned, it was all totally worth it.

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I finally got to see a jeepney with my own eyes. Philippines, I am really in you! Meanwhile, I have to say, though everyone warned me about what traffic would be like in Manila, the second we were thrown right into it, it actually made perfect sense to me. I may be unaccustomed to incessant honking on the road, but the driving language there is completely different and absolutely perfect for the situation. No one would get anywhere safely over there if people didn't signal their location with the horns or get their car nose right up in there once a half inch opened up. Yes, we were stuck in spots for ages but I really didn't mind it at all. Also, very few situations on the road drive you too nuts after you've literally sat in one spot for 3 hours straight. That's right, New Jersey Turnpike, I'm looking right at your congested ass!
Ok, I didn't take many photos like this as I felt quite invasive doing so, but straight out of the airport, the reality of a whole other kind of life is everywhere. At one point, we were stopped in traffic and these little kids came up to the car windows to beg. Tiny, tiny children who looked like they had nothing and made me want to cry for not having anything to give, no money, no food... my tita gave them candies in the end but, really, nothing had ever torn at my heart the way that moment did. It kills me to think that anything they do get could very possibly go to someone who is exploiting them and their innocence.



My first time in the family home since shortly after I was born.

Ah, Resorts World. I'll never not have mixed feelings about the existence of places like this particularly in poorer cities.


Yes, those are crab shells!

A Royal Blue Christmas with the best family anyone could ask for. Seriously.

Fully Booked! My little bookstore loving heart exploded.



Looking at the city as we began the drive to Tagaytay to celebrate my parents' 40th wedding anniversary.

Tagaytay was lovely and the air was so kind. Though I was so happy to be there, I spent most of the day painfully uncomfortable and itchy but the cleaner, fresher, less humid air out there provided something of a balm after the city air.


I will never see this and not think, 'Karaoke!'


Beautiful Manila Bay Sunset.


Manila Ocean Park's Symphony of Lights. Ok, I got surprisingly emotional watching this. Honestly this was a fantastically choreographed show with some perfectly chosen music. I was really impressed.

Project Pie Profoundness. Loved that place and its fabulous pizza pies.



Filo feasting at its finest. After years of photos on Viber, I finally got to be in one!

Ponging it up with the cousins. Hilarious times. My cousin, RJ (not pictured), is hands down one of the funniest people I've ever met in my life. His siblings get honourable mention. My gut was busted every single day.

Pastel Ladies on NYE 2015-2016. The colour-coordinated fun times never stopped!

Right before I left for the airport... and they all came. The absolute best airport entourage you could ever hope for. I carry this photo with me always.

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And... done! Till next time, Phils. Thank you, as well as every other trip I've taken but especially you, for being so wonderful and furthermore providing me with just about the biggest bout of perspective I've ever received. On every count possible, I am ridiculously fortunate.

Fortunate to have been born into a culture of which I'm immensely proud, yes, all its past and ongoing transgressions notwithstanding.

Fortunate to have been given the chance to live in the beautiful and bountiful country I do now and to create the life I live and love.

Fortunate to have the physical, emotional and financial means to actually return to the country in which I was born and visit so many others.

Fortunate to have such an amazing family here in Australia, in the US and in the Phils and to have now almost met them all after 34 years.

I am a very, very lucky human.

Friday, December 30, 2016

[Repost] On the notion of Belief - Do Science and Religion really have to be incompatible?


A friend on Facebook posted this article from the NY Times and it's a great conversation between the Pastor and the interviewer, Nicholas Kristof, about questioning faith. Pastor Kelly makes some wonderful points questioning the notions that skepticism and science are necessarily incompatible with religion and suggesting that secularists 'should be as open to questions and doubts about their positions as religious people' - all things I not only agree with, but deeply believe in. I really do recommend people give it a read, whatever they believe. 

It was in that spirit, that I wrote the below last year. Well, that spirit and somewhat admittedly incendiary response to comments on a topic posted to the IFLS Facebook page about giving up sugar for Lent hence of the moments of tonal aggression. Why a repost? Because pretty much any response I have to the above linked article is pretty much already summed up below. 

As always, my overarching stance on pretty much anything is that I respect the respectful, regardless of where they stand on the spectrum of belief. 

Originally posted on April 4, 2015:

'Science and religion are based on different aspects of human experience. In science, explanations must be based on evidence drawn from examining the natural world. Scientifically based observations or experiments that conflict with an explanation eventually must lead to modification or even abandonment of that explanation. Religious faith, in contrast, does not depend only on empirical evidence, is not necessarily modified in the face of conflicting evidence, and typically involves supernatural forces or entities. Because they are not a part of nature, supernatural entities cannot be investigated by science. In this sense, science and religion are separate and address aspects of human understanding in different ways. Attempts to pit science and religion against each other create controversy where none needs to exist.'


I do encourage everyone to read the rest of that page linked above.

Earlier today, the I Fucking Love Science (IFLS) FB page posted a link about what happens to you if you happened to give up sugar for Lent. I'm always somewhat wary of seeing links like this on IFLS, not because I'm not religious, quite the opposite, but because I've become accustomed to the hostility and mindless bashing that comes with even remotely daring to have the notions of both science and religion in the same vicinity. I have seen it before when IFLS linked to an article talking about the potential discovery of the birthplace of Jesus. Now I understand that IFLS and any similar sites are not The History Channel or otherwise historically informative, but when I see comments like, 'Why are you reporting on a myth', I am filled with a very quiet but very real fury (look up the history for two seconds, honestly). On today's post about sugar addiction that dared to mention Lent, some choice comments included, 'If you practise Lent, there's already something wrong with your head' and 'do people who fucking love science observe Lent?'.

Clearly that first comment is far more incendiary than the second which, outside of my own bias and doubt, could have been genuinely meant. In that case, I will answer it with a resounding yes. Some people who fucking love science actually observe Lent because they are both scientists and Catholics or Christians. In fact, growing up, the majority of priests I knew were scholars in science, most notably physics. Even now, some of my friends who are scientists and engineers are also very devout Catholics who have no problem pursuing science and practising their faith at the same time. Bearing further mention are the countless Christian or Catholic scientists who have contributed so significantly to our modern understanding of the world. How many people know who Georges Lemaitre, Angelo Secchi or Roger Bacon are? Look them up.

[On a personal note, I am a happily practising Catholic with a Bachelor of Science in Psychology (although one who admittedly chose not to pursue it as a career but professionally assists others who have) who agrees wholeheartedly with the use of the scientific method to learn more about the world around us. Any qualms I may have with scientific pursuit usually fall under the umbrella of scientific ethics (an area into which I undertook postgraduate study), often in the area of bioethics (eg. cloning), but such areas are generally contentious and without medical or scientific consensus so I'm far from alone on that count, religious or not.]

Essentially, what is upsetting and angering about comments that immediately jump on the science and religion can't coexist is that these days, some such declarations (not all, I'm sure, but many) are made without having actually attempted to read or research the idea and appear to have become Pop Fact, much like the notion that religion has caused the most wars (again, fury) despite the fact that according to recorded history, only 123 out of 1763 wars and less than 2% of all people killed in warfare have been classified as religiously based, according to the Encyclopedia of Wars by Phillips and Axelrod. Yet, people seem more than willing to blindly accept that religion is a bigger source of evil than outright human greed and territorial conquest and the need for power and control.

Also, from experience, a lot of people who seem to 'love' science, have no damn clue what it actually is. As a Psych student, I was often told by people I knew in the hard sciences that 'Psych is not a science' despite the fact that the method by which I spent a degree being taught to study observable human behaviour was most definitely the scientific method and the statistical analysis that followed (which I have gladly left behind) was engaged to ensure we were obtaining results as statistically significant as possible. We didn't do that shit for fun, we were trying to see if the variables we had manipulated in order to test our hypotheses were actually making a real difference - just like people do in labs. Pardon us for trying to scientifically research something that is intangible and therefore more difficult to assess. To this day, I say those studying cognitive psychology are some of the most creative people I've ever encountered. Being able to construct experiments to test and observe memory? Insanely imaginative and clever.

But I digress. As the statement made above by the Academy of Sciences points out, scientific reason and faith and belief look at things from completely different angles and ultimately, that's how you want to view the world - from as many angles as possible. Considering we live in an age obsessed with pluralistic thought and perspective, it's odd that people are then only willing to engage in understanding the world via one very often flawed means. When journalists investigate a story, attacking it from just the one side or the one perspective, it begs questions of bias, an agenda and a lack of objectivity. Why is it suddenly completely objective to stand by science and nothing else?

I think what people get confused is scientific fact versus scientific discovery and possibility. More likely than not, what many people take on board as scientific 'fact' is nothing more than the replicated results of studies that provide evidence for particular conclusions to be drawn. These are not facts, they are findings that potentially support hypotheses and once disproven or falsified, will be altered. As an undergrad science student, I was trained to write, '... there is evidence to suggest...' ad nauseum. Even in areas of more solid and tangible results, for example, biological or medical discoveries and treatments, there are only so many treatments, medications and therapies that work 100% of the time. As a sufferer of a number of chronic medical conditions, I can at least personally attest to the fact that many treatments that have worked on many past patients have not been able to work on me and I am not alone in that at all. When it comes to science, we do what we can with the knowledge that we have and still test what works and what doesn't. The rest, we take on almost as a form of faith, eg. I have never seen these medical results in others for myself, but I have taken it on faith that the medical community backing these assertions aren't simply lying to me. In that same spirit, I have never been to space, seen the moon's surface for myself or seen the Red Spot on Jupiter with my own eyes, but I have faith and trust in those astrophysicists who have done the research for me.

Now, if someone has no belief or has chosen not to believe in the supernatural (I don't, however, tend to adhere to the notion that anyone chooses what they believe. While specific beliefs can be altered, belief in itself is simply that. You believe something or you don't), then fine, if you have no room for any form of spirituality in your life or are happy in the notion that biological or neurological processes or quantum mechanics are enough explanation for the more intangible aspects of life, then by all means, that is absolutely your call. This does not, however, give you the authority to declare as fact beyond a shadow of a doubt, that those who do believe in a supernatural aspect of the world are either dead wrong and intellectually pitiable because in some cases, the likelihood will be that those people have put a lot more thought into it because that which is intangible bears far more need for thought by nature of its invisibility.

I do understand that there are people out there who have thoughtlessly decided to follow one belief system or another, among them Catholics and Christians, however, this type of believer is not strictly bound within the arena of religious faith. There are blind adherents to scientists, philosophers, hell, nowadays, even celebrities (I'm looking at you, Jenny McCarthy, incidental anti-vax champion. More fury).

Rather than demonise, however, as I've always stood by the notion that everyone believes what they do for a reason, whatever reasons they may be, at the end of the day, by all means, disagree, mock, even, if you really must, but maybe once in a while, instead of burrowing comfortably in your warren of disbelief/belief, ask someone you just do not understand - why?

Tuesday, November 08, 2016

Oh dear, 2016 did slow down in terms of books...

... but hey, there's always something to say about those wonderful things.

I never ended up reading To The Lighthouse because I came into possession of books by a trio of hilarious women and decided to proceed to knock off two of them. Then I got halted massively by Jonathan Safran Foer. Not sure how to speak of that guy's writing though I described it as delightfully insufferable to a friend. The man is imaginative and insightful, no doubt, but there's also something to be said for writing characters I can actually care about and I think that may be where it dips downhill.

Saying that, Eating Animals, though still unfinished, has really gotten me thinking about a lot. It makes some very, very good points about the real reasons we eat what we eat and delving into the cultural norms that many often never bother thinking about it, and it's certainly had me looking further into factory farming and their impacts. No, I'm not about to go vegan even though I already trawl the menus, but I am interested in bettering my understanding of more humane and more environmentally sound methods of farming and agriculture.

On the subject of fiction, however, after finally rolling over the mountain that was Everything Is Illuminated and then deciding to halt Eating Animals altogether, I went on fishing through my piles and have happily gone through the below.

Now Reading:


Some of my recently acquired and as yet unread titles:

From Gleebooks at the Sydney Writers' Festival 2016:





From POWELL'S BOOKS in Portland (squee!):


I've read some of the poems, actually. LOVE this man. His poems represent him to a tee.


From Graphic 2016 (and for free from Kinokuniya!):


Finished:
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I had no clue at all of Mindy Kaling's lifelong relationship with comedy and my appreciation of what she does went sky high upon reading this book. And she is funny. I've admittedly found some of her past skits and bits less than fun or amusing (though of course, there was The Office so, colour me dolt) so I was initially surprised by the degree to which The Mindy Project had me rolling in its pointed and brisk hilarity. In book form, however, her concentrated mix of humour, honesty and insanity made for light but completely relatable reading. The whole time, I could hear Kelly Kapoor/Dr Lahiri's voices telling me each story and relaying every anecdote and in the end, I'd thoroughly enjoyed getting to know this woman who shares just as many insecurities as the rest of us non-famous chicks do and has chosen, again and again, to run with it all. That courage was one of the many common threads between her, Tina and Amy's books, where each time, I got to know these genuinely amazing women on a slightly more intimate level and learn that the difference between us all was a lot of hard work and circumstance and that is a difference that separates, divides and makes unique the lives of pretty much everyone. 


Tina is fantastic. I loved this. I loved so much of it. Ok, so another common thread between the three were the reminders that we've all been taught since childhood while being further taught the exact opposite on almost every other level - be you. Above all things. You are more than your face and your shape, you are more than your sex and you can and should be you, with all your neuroticisms, in all you do. You are worthy of respect and no one else in the world's words, ideas or opinions change any part of that because as Tina asks, "Who cares?" I could not agree more. Listen, learn, grow but don't let personal change be coerced by pointless negativity. Honestly, a wonderfully written book and, like Mindy, I loved getting to know the woman behind the humour just that little bit better.


Interesting and intricate though it was, this book slowed me down significantly. Maybe it was the plodding introduction of the narrator and his guide's clumsy English and the ever-winding myth and history of Trachimbrod, but I just felt like my ability to read came to a screeching halt. The historical background of the story is genuinely interesting and much like when I read Middlesex and learned about the Great Fire of Smyrna and the 1967 Detroit Riot, I was unaware of Trochenbrod's existence and its ultimate demise at the hands of the Nazis, having been a Jewish shtetl (a small town with a significant Jewish population). I was also not yet familiar with the notion of Magical Realism until I read this (a literary introduction not dissimilar to my discovery of Speculative Fiction upon reading The Handmaid's Tale) and this may have been a part of the hindrance because I've not a lot of taste for fantasy as it is (though Gaiman is fast changing this). I've never finished a single Tolkien, not even The Hobbit, and J.K. Rowling has provided the rest of what I've swallowed in terms of fantasy, that is, if we don't include the more fantastical elements in King's horror stories. Admittedly, I'm now finding myself choking on literary definition so I'll stop there, but the style did not appeal to me and the story was a slog. It might do to give it a re-read, but I have a feeling that what I'm dealing with here is a simple lack of chemistry between writer and reader. I wouldn't not recommend it, not at all, it just wasn't for me. I have been distinctly imprinted with the fact that Jonathan Safran Foer is a very intelligent man, but his storytelling felt rather like lead.


This was a really interesting read for me because by the time I read it, I had attended two talks by Anna Westbrook over the last two Writers' Festivals in Sydney. That she was from UNSW furthered my curiosity about her style and what reading her would be like and having attended a talk in which she specifically spoke about her approach to this very book, I had some idea of what to expect. Something I should mention here, is that Australian writers sound incredibly different to other writers and as someone who has still read shamefully little Australian Literature, I think I tend to find myself needing to adjust, despite the fact that a lot of the dialogue and the culture as written is actually familiar to me. It's simply a voice of which I've read comparatively little. So reading this, I found some of that jarring. I also found the tone and the description wasn't really to my liking. It reminded me of a book I read last year, by Hannah Kent - Burial Rites - which I understand was well-acclaimed, but that I distinctly did not enjoy. I found her language needlessly melodramatic and oftentimes overbearing... and that same criticism applies here to some extent. Saying that, I actually quite liked the story and felt for Nancy, Frances, Templeton and their families. I was still able be drawn into their lives and my pangs with the writing style only meant that I was pulled out of the story from time to time. It's also a piece of historical fiction which means I did think it an intriguing glimpse into Sydney's past. Though I only discovered this afterwards, a few real historical figures made appearances and the story itself was borne of an actual rape and murder of a young girl that took place in Newtown at the time - all information I knew nothing of about the city in which I live. Style aside, anything that introduces me to more history is something I'll appreciate.


Amy Poehler is amazing. I love her and I loved this book. Read it. Read it. Read it because nothing I say will be able to convey just how strongly she spoke in this book. Aside from being funny, honest, clever and so, so brilliantly insane, she clearly wants people to realise themselves. To go out and take on all the scary shit they want to do and try. She, like Tina and Mindy (and, I'm going to guess, every other comedian who has written an autobiography or, well, done stand up) very openly addresses her fears and insecurities and the constant battles you have with yourself as a person, and in her case, as a writer and an entertainer. Learning to stop hiding from those 'demons', and simply put them right back in their place when they try to corner her, prod her, remind her she's nothing, is a struggle everyone can understand and hopefully learn from. Overall, I highly recommend.

As I approached the end of Yes, Please, I fell quite ill for a week and ended up revisiting my childhood in book form, devouring 19 books in 3 days. Ah, the luxury temporarily incapacitating illness affords. The list is below as it seems both brutal for me to look up every single cover and then to subject all that to anyone who reads this.

2 x You Be the Jury books
1 x You Be the Detective book
SVH (yes, by gum, that does stand for Sweet Valley High) In Love Again
SVH Double Love
2 x 20 Mini Mystery books (one spooky, one not so spooky)
2 x Encyclopaedia Brown books
The Lifeguard (ah, the Point book phase of my pre-teen years!)
The Babysitter
Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys - Hits and Misses
Nancy Drew - Diamond Deceit
1 x The Usborne Books of Whodunnits
1 x Usborne Puzzle Adventure set - 3 stories
1 x Sleepover Friends
2 x Usborne Spinechillers - House of Shadows and Ghost Train to Nowhere

as well as finishing Yes Please, of course.


Suzanne Leal was another author I had the privilege of seeing speak at the Writers' Festival on a panel alongside Emily Maguire about Secrets and Survival. As a tale of suspense, it works very well and as that foreigner of sorts to Aussie stories, I found this one well written and full of characters that I could care about (or hate, as it were. Either way, there was an emotional connection or response). Terry, the subject of all the scrutiny, the man with a secret, was someone who I could not help but feel for the whole time. All I could see was this kind, caring, dedicated educator and carer being dragged through the dirt. I'm unsure if one was meant to feel more ambiguity towards his innocence, but from the start, I felt for him and his friends and the kids. I also enjoyed getting to know the rest of the townsfolk as Leal introduced them all chapter by chapter so that, alongside finding myself so invested in the story as a whole, well, can't complain about that. Furthermore, the importance of an education that really takes into account the real characters and abilities of the pupils is something I strongly believe in and Terry seemed to represent that integrity, only making me like him more.


There was quite the gap between books as I went through all the craziness at work, while simultaneously preparing for my trip. As I was spending most of my train rides falling asleep from sheer exhaustion, reading time largely vanished. In Portland, I finally made it to the unbelievably amazing Powell's Bookstore and after hours of browsing and getting lost among the many floors and shelves and hyperventilating over finding signed, first editions of books by T.S. Eliot and (breathe, breathe...) William Faulkner, I ended up purchasing three books. one of which was the above.
Hands down, this is one of the funniest and most entertaining books I've read in a long, long time. Yes, even including the trio of Comedy Queens above. Jesse Andrews did an amazing job of taking this teenage guy and his love of film and his carefully constructed social world and making me laugh out loud or have to smother my laughter in public as I went on the journey with him through a bizarre and often confusing new friendship. Me, Earl and the Dying Girl is a YA novel that I would want every teen to read (and pretty much anyone else, really) because it is so fucking frank and so, so funny all the while. Greg's inner workings are entertaining as hell and man, I only wish I could have been so humorously, keenly aware of myself as a teenager. Heart by the bucketloads, laughs aplenty - pure gold and my favourite read of the year so far.



Emily Maguire is a fantastic literary panellist. She has great energy and humour and, from the talks I attended, a real handle on human behaviour. What was great was getting such a sense of all of this as I read her work. This was a great book - fundamentally human all the way through and as wrenching as you could imagine a story about the fallout from a murder would be. I loved Chris' character's wit and grit and stony realism in an un-ideal world. I admit I had less empathy for May's character, though that probably had a lot more to do with my total disdain for two very specific things - cheaters in relationships and completely boundary-less and disrespectful journalists - which she seemed to embody from the beginning (though admittedly, technically not the cheater, still, why do that to another person?). Though I did get to know her better over the course of the story and get a better sense of the fact that she was largely trying to survive and ultimately get to the truth and my response to all that is a testament to Maguire's writing. She did well to create an atmosphere of constant mystery and suspense amidst small town folk and small town gossip and her characters were real, funny, irreverent and oftentimes surprising. A thoroughly enjoyable book.


A re-read and an interesting one at that, because this was sort of my writing bible in the early 00's and it is indeed also a beautiful and funny memoir, though oddly enough, the tone sat differently with me this time around. It could be that certain parts of the book age a little poorly, only because it was completed at the turn of the millennium (something poignantly demonstrated by the short story featured at the end, a tale which these days, may be met with a little bit more trepidation as partially evidenced by my own personal reaction to it after all these years), not to mention how much has changed in terms of the world pretty much transferring itself online, leaving his advice about letters and books quite dated. I still enjoyed it and was again reminded of what I love about his writing and his outlook on the world and the craft, but yes, there was a tonal difference from what I remember. A long while back, when Television Without Pity still existed pre-Bravo takeover, I stumbled quite by accident upon a discussion between Sars and Wing Chun about Stephen King and how he 'jumped the shark' by writing On Writing. I remember thinking their criticism was harsh at the time, equating him to your somewhat annoyingly 'wise' old uncle who wants to sit you down and tell you some tales, ayup. Upon re-read, however, many years later, I see some of what they're talking about. Though he often acknowledges that he only really knows what he knows and that's nothing, the way he then goes on to advise on the tools in the writer's toolbox seems a little incongruously pompous. I wonder now if I'm being too harsh, but it was a surprise for me to feel that way because I adore this book. It always pays to revisit though. Maybe I'll feel differently again when I'm closer to his age and I give it another go.


I finished this in less than two days, that's how swiftly and completely engrossed in the story I was. For a story seen through the eyes of the one character, and one who is (thankfully) not too prone to over narrating and overwrought description and is merely thinking and remembering and attempting to understand it all, Ishiguro did an amazing job of plunging me into the Hailsham world. Kathy recalls her childhood and adolescence and her burgeoning adulthood, complex though it all was, in simple, utterly relatable bits and pieces. Looking back is always an exercise in difficulty. Are you recalling things correctly? Are you even able to do that, as a biased human being? Then looking over the moments and events recalled, trying to cut through the thorny maze of confusion as you piece it all together and try to understand how the course of life and history could be mapped out and filled by those puzzle pieces of memory... and this doesn't even begin to mention the horrifying world in which this is all happening. I was fairly spoiled for this book, having watched bits of the movie's end and subsequently looking it up on Wikipedia and getting the basic plot down. Despite that, despite having a fair idea of what was going to happen, I was still completely within the story. Ishiguro is an amazing writer and this book had me wanting to ask humanity - why do you do these things? Oh, dehumanisation. The book presented it in a frighteningly pure form and knocked me dead with it, so much so that I now have a new favourite book and author.

Aaand finally done for this batch! Insanely overdue, but at least it's finally done. I've missed reviewing so it actually feels pretty great to get this up and to also 'colour my (blog) with the chaos of (literature)'. Now, Gaiman, sir, I continue my journey to The Ocean at the End of the Lane.

Cue GIF!

An accurate depiction of the state of my room.

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Much hiatus. So brain dumpage. Wow.

It's been a little too long since I've gotten on there - another one of many, of course, inevitable pauses, attempts to regroup, rest, breathe amidst the constant battle for comprehension of a world so intensely full. Of course, I've also been genuinely busy, though since I've gotten back from my trip, I've had a number of ideas for posts - the joys of any form of travel, wherever it goes and however long it lasts, the shared experiences of so many different cities, the steamroller that is gentrification and progress and finding a balance between necessity and maintaining cultural life, glimpsing the spirit of different cities and the fights they fight, to jot down a few - and thus far, they haven't moved into the realm of published reality purely because of the usual mix of laziness and distraction on my part.

Frankly, I read too much. I don’t mean that in the way many would think… what I mean is, I read and then find myself trying to digest too much, of the world’s problems, mostly. I understand why people pick a cause and seemingly ignore all others because it is freaking exhausting.

Here’s an example.

Trying to argue in the debate on transgenderism while then having to take into account the biological science, the psychological development of children, the ongoing battles in feminism and homosexuality, the science and history of opinion and how that comes to play in a modern world where everyone’s opinions are strengthened by those who agree and cause increasing polarity between them and those who don’t, taking into account morality and moral relativism, the ongoing debate about mandating morality and having government favour a particular moral stance or viewpoint, the true development of each individual’s moral perspectives and therefore the understanding of background, the inevitable discussion about socio-economic status and people’s genuine access to opportunity, the notion of white privilege, the notion of racism, the notion of mandating laws about offence or offending people’s sensibilities and again the issue of moral superiority, the neverending question about those who have and those who have not and the machinations involved behind closed doors about what can be done about it all, the need to trust in the goodness of humanity despite overwhelming evidence of people’s greed and lack of foresight of belief in integrity, the need to trust in goodness at all when those believed in have made so many errors, even inside my own church, the notion of belief, the power of persuasion versus hard core belief, the history of all of it and the myths that have been bandied around as fact, sifting through truth and lies, the source of those truths and lies, whether they be the media, the education sector, the government, the lobbyists, the nature of journalism and the need to tell the truth versus the need to sell or send a particular message, positive or negative, the need for people to have the capacity to discern between fact and fiction, the need for education that creates those types of people, the need for true objectivity and the uphill battle in finding it because people are humans with experiences, ideas, backgrounds and subjectivity is the fallback position for anyone, however objective they believe themselves to be, the importance of history and how often that importance and how often the history itself is ignored and therefore doomed to repeat, the importance of the ideological and philosophical history, the debate surrounding whether or not truth even exists, the difference between truth and perspective of truth and the different means by which one finds it, the power of fiction to deliver and discover truth, the power of media to create platforms for truth and perspective, the ever changing landscape of how people see and learn and teach and speak, the inevitable debate about useless entertainment and its ability to distract from what is real, countered by the importance of culture in the progression of society and humanity, the sheer age of the medium of story and the way in which people seem programmed to respond to narrative, in whatever form.

I have to stop there because this will go on forever and at some point it will likely force me to plunge myself off the tracks altogether.

This is my brain. I’ve tried to say to myself again and again, pick something, anything, and then run with that, then lather, rinse, repeat.

But fatigue, physical, mental and emotional, are very, very real. And the reality also exists that none of the above exist without the others and in and of themselves, there already exists an immensity of literature and continuing schools of thought and discussion. The tapestry is so damn huge and unfortunately only metaphorical because trying to envision it all, trying to digest it all, trying to do so without feeling like you’re drowning in thought might be aided by an honest to goodness piece of something that maps all this shit out. Something to grab on to.

There is an actual throbbing in my right, frontal lobe at this very minute.

And now all I want to do is laugh.

I am a person with problems, much like everyone else, some real, some illusory, many, many which I feel don’t even begin to compare with those of the vast majority of the world, despite my childish cling to a notion of ‘difference’.

Thinking about this shit weighs a ton. But what a luxury I have, to have the time and means to think about it at all.

My daily 'battle' in this regard will always be the attempts to pick something and try to do something about it, granted I make the time. My life is what it is and I constantly try to figure out what more to do with it, but at the same time, I’ll be damned if I don’t try to squeeze every possible bit of meaning and offering I can out of each and every second because that is just how I am and I would never want to be any different.

Anyway, where to from here? The pot bubbles and I do plan to serve up some of the resulting stew. For now, at least, this place remains as it always has - a means by which to sort and share.

A nice thing to have, really. 

Saturday, August 13, 2016

Unity Through Laughter - So Fluffy!!!


I seriously want as many people to watch this video as possible - the more useless stereotypes and preconceptions dead, the better (although may the humorously benign ones live forever! I can't take a world where an Arabian prince can't be in possession of a real life tiger and one ideally named Rajah).

Love this guy and genuinely love what he's trying to do with his work - it's a hell of a balance being able to remain genuine, truly hilarious and culturally sensitive without completely ignoring cultural differences and ultimately being able to highlight the humour in all of it.

Salud Gibril!

Monday, August 08, 2016

The closest I'll ever come to 'experimental' 'photography'...

... yes, both sets of quotation marks are necessary when you're talking about me essentially chasing tail lights in Rhode Island on a slow exposure in a moving car.

Nevertheless, it did make the drive back to Jersey from Newport that bit more enjoyable and some of these turned out a lot more fun than I expected so hey, why not post those bastards and pretty this place up a little? I re-stumbled upon them looking through the pics I took on my last trip to the US back in 2010 and found myself momentarily wondering, I was on what, now?

Of course, I secretly think I've delved into the untapped genius that is my photographic capabilities and am sure that anyone who sees this will demand I immediately contribute to a gallery exhibition on the sheer merit of all the pretty squiggles because, come on, look at those things.

























La Linea!!





Yeesssssssss........